A manuscript left behind
Days after Lee’s death,a colleague who barely knew himreceived a manuscript.
There was no request for help. Andy had been drafted, and this was the assignment.
He had no idea why Lee had chosen him.
Lee Knoll is a pseudonym. The author asked that their identity remain private.
The novel
A private world
without simple answers
Intimate, unsettling, and threaded with mordant humour, I’m Going to Miss Me enters the private world of a narrator living at a distance from the people and expectations surrounding him.
It refuses easy explanations. Instead, it stays with the thoughts people edit out before speaking.
Isolation
The distance between a person and the world around them.
Identity
What remains when someone chooses not to be known.
Detachment
The quiet contradictions of emotional disconnection.
Being understood
Whether another person can ever fully know what someone meant.
The manuscript
A manuscript
left behind
After Lee’s death, Andy received a manuscript, instructions to seek publication, and one clear directive: protect the author’s identity.
He became the unexpected custodian of a story whose author no longer wished to be known.
About Lee
The name
that remains
Lee Knoll is the pseudonym of the novel’s late author. Their identity remains private in accordance with their final wishes.
No public biography, portrait, or personal history will be used to replace the anonymity they deliberately chose.
Andy’s afterword
Why I brought this
book into the world
To this day, I remain mystified about why I was chosen to bring a story into the world written by a person I hardly knew.
I had been drafted, and this was my assignment.
After repeated readings, I am resigned to not knowing. But I wonder if Lee’s greatest fear was being misunderstood.
The final instruction
One thing was
not left uncertain.
In accordance with Lee’s wishes, the author’s full share of any proceeds from the novel will be donated to the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (AFSP).
American Foundation for Suicide PreventionContextThe novel explores suicidal ideation as part of its subject matter. It does not present suicide as a solution.
The book
The story
made visible.
Lee asked to remain unknown. The novel was the part they chose to leave behind.
- Publication date
- September 1, 2026
- Paperback
- $18.95
- Hardcover
- $28.95
- Ebook
- $9.99
Köehler Books · distributed by Ingram
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